News Letter 5845-026
23rd day of the Fifth month 5845 years after creation
The Fifth Month in the Sabbatical Year
The Second Sabbatical Year of the 119th Jubilee Cycle
August 15, 2009
Shabbat Shalom Brethren,
I continue to encourage each of you to share this news letter with friends and relatives while you still can. In fact if each of you were able to sign up just one new brother or sister we would have over 20,000 readers in no time.
Our site : https://sightedmoon.com has over 410,000 hits and this is remarkable.
Here is what one person has just sent in after they were forwarded last week’s News Letter.
I was forwarded your message and was so impressed with it, — loved it! Please put me on your mailing list.
thank you and blessings
And another says;
Dear Mr. Dumond,
I have recently seen your teaching on Prophecy Club. My uncle emailed me the site to review it, and I found it to be a very good teaching.
The main reason I’m writing you is the subject of essential oils. I have been studying essential oils now for about 5 years. What brought me into the study of these oils was a motorcycle accident I had in 2004. After the accident, a friend brought by my house some oils for me to check out from Young Living. He was trying to recruit me into the multilevel business. I was laid up and had nothing else to do, so I checked it out and decided to sign up. Over time I began to understand the benefits of essential oils, especially the ones in the Bible. Everything your friend Mr. Holger has written to you is true about essential oils.
With this time of plagues coming up in history and according to prophecy, I strongly believe that these oils may benefit Yeshua’s people and others.
And still another said the following,
Finally, I am extremely blessed by your and Mr Holger’s articles about the biblical anointing oils and I plan to get the “Healing Oils of the Bible” book from Amazon. It has occurred to me Joseph, that these oils have enormous potential, especially when we consider the effects of the plagues and pandemics that are just ahead of us. It seems to me that if we were able to form a small community of dedicated Torah observant believers in Israel, we could set up our own manufacturing, bottling and distribution unit in Israel to provide for the lively hood of all the participants, as well as finance the work of proclaiming the Tov News of the Kingdom, as per Matthew 24:14. It could be a small kibbutz for the healing of the nations. This work might then finance our publishing, broadcasting, and our worldwide ministry efforts. Hey, what do you think about that for an idea brother?
Can you please send me the article you sent out to others on the healing oils.
I really do thank G-D for your monthly emails.
Each of you has a responsibility to share the knowledge of Yahweh with all men. If this News Letter is the tool by which you can do that then by all means let others know. There is a time when we will not be able to share the Good News, but now is not that time. So tell others while the sun still shines. Those who have read this site for a while know that in just 7 and ½ years we will be in the 4th curse of the Sabbatical cycles which is war. This war will be in North America and in England and we will not be the victors, because the 5th curse of the Sabbatical cycles is captivity.
We have said much about this in the past and will do so again in the future. So please tell others as often as you can to sign up and learn the scriptures.
On August 20th 2009 will be the conjunction of the moon. This will be the beginning of the month for the Hebrew calendar. But we will wait until the first crescent is seen from Jerusalem which is expected on either Friday August 21 or Saturday August 22. Again the Hebraism of ‘No Man knows the Day or the Hours’ comes into play here. The reason no one knows is because no one will know until it is seen. And next month the seventh month on the first day of that month is the Feast of Trumpets which represents the day the Messiah is to come. But because that day is the first day of the seventh month and the first day is determined by the sighting of the moon and because we will not know at what time that will happen, this is why no man can know the day or the hour of his return. Not until the moon is sighted. So again I encourage you all to go out and look for the moon to see when it will appear. It is the anticipation of its arrival and then not being able to see it one moment and then the next you can that makes this event fun for the whole family to participate in. Have a contest to see who can see it first.
I would also like you all to take advantage this coming week and get up early in the morning of August 17, 18, 19 and watch the last phases of the moon as she goes into the conjunction. In the Eastern time zone this is about 4-5 AM.
By doing this you will be able to understand exactly what David and Johnathan were talking about in 1 Samuel 20. Do this and learn, and do not live in doubt any longer. The Sightedmoon calendar is the one to go by in order to count to the days of each Appointed time spoken of in Lev 23.
Again brethren you need to share this information with your brethren in all the SDA groups, all the Churches of God Groups, all the Messianic groups, and all the Jewish groups. Let them know and be able to prove it to them.
As proof that the sighted moon is the correct way to begin each month and is the first day of the month to start the count to the Holy Days, I respectfully submit an opinionated witness. It is the new Sanhedrin, in Jerusalem which has set up a committee to receive witnesses who have seen the New Crescent of the moon each month.
I say opinionated because although they know the proper method is to use the sighted moon, they will not change from the Hebrew calendar even though they admit it is wrong and getting further from the proper time of the Holy Days each year. They state this on their web site, so you too can read it and know this is not just my opinion. They actually state this.
Please go to their own web site at http://www.thesanhedrin.org/en/index.php/Committee_concerning_the_fixing_of_the_Calendar and read it for yourself. Then ask yourself if you are going to disobey Yahweh by obeying men? If the answer is yes you would rather obey man, then keep following the Hebrew calendar. If on the other hand you would like to begin to obey Yahweh and follow His instructions, then begin to keep the Biblically Sighted moon calendar, which keeps the Holy Days as Yahweh told us to do in Lev 23.
While we are talking about the movement of the planets I have to share this one little note I received this week.
“Well you also showed [warned] us regarding the eclipse of the sun. It went over India, China, Taiwan, and partially over Japan, but out in the ocean south of Japan, and where did that first earthquake’s epicenter happen a week ago? Followed up with Tokyo shaking yesterday? Floods in China and Taiwan? Wow !! “
Hmmm, does this not make you think? I am so glad that others are beginning to see these things and start to think about what is happening around the world.
And lastly here is a little bit of information for you to think about before we start this weeks lesson. From Brit-Am.Org
1. Hebrew Greetings in English or Not?
Hullo short for Hallaluyah.
Bye short for baracu i.e. be you blessed (plural) to which was added
“good” to make Goodbye.
“So Long” derived from a German Jewish dialectical pronunciation of Shalom.
[Source: Y. Klausner?].
We have now discussed Law and Grace for over a month now. We should all by now realize that you cannot be saved by keeping the Torah. You are saved by grace and the grace of Yahweh alone.
So now what? What does it mean to be saved by grace?
Most of the Christian world says that Yeshua fulfilled the law so that they don’t have to keep the law. What does that mean? If this is true then what does Peter mean when he says in Acts 2:38
Then Peter said to them, “Repent, and let every one of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.
Why do you have to repent of anything if you are already saved by grace?
And if you’re saved by grace then what did Yeshua mean when He said in Luke 13:23-29
23 Then one said to Him, “Lord, are there few who are saved?” And He said to them, 24 “Strive to enter through the narrow gate, for many, I say to you, will seek to enter and will not be able. 25 When once the Master of the house has risen up and shut the door, and you begin to stand outside and knock at the door, saying, ‘Lord, Lord, open for us,’ and He will answer and say to you, ‘I do not know you, where you are from,’ 26 then you will begin to say, ‘We ate and drank in Your presence, and You taught in our streets.’ 27 But He will say, ‘I tell you I do not know you, where you are from. Depart from Me, all you workers of iniquity.’ 28 There will be weeping and gnashing of teeth, when you see Abraham and Isaac and Jacob and all the prophets in the kingdom of God, and yourselves thrust out.
23. Are there few that be saved? The same question is often asked now. Yeshua never answers it, but bids the questioner to look out for his own salvation. If we are all saved by grace then what does this mean? Why did Yeshua not say you are all saved by grace, instead He let them consider that only a few will make it?
In fact in the next verse, He tells us to strive, or agonize to enter the narrow gate. Why a narrow gate when we are all saved by grace?
24. Strive to enter in by the narrow door. The language implies that effort, earnest, agonizing is necessary. The word “strive” in the Greek is the one from whence our word agonize comes. The narrow door. The door of the kingdom is so narrow that we cannot take our sins, our lusts, our worldliness and worldly pleasures in with us.
But many Christians say that you just have to come as you are. You do not have to change, because you’re saved by grace; so that when you get to heaven you can carry on the same way as you lived on earth, everyone doing his own thing and whatever lust you have you can keep on doing it.
25. Hath shut the door. Even that narrow door shall be shut. The time of opportunity will pass by. Even here on earth, the heart hardens so that it will be impossible to stir it to repentance.
Read that again. The time to repent will be over and the door shut, then what happens? Then the punishments that no one talks about begin to happen. In fact they are already happening as we have been showing you on this web site as shown to us from the teachings about the Sabbatical and Jubilee cycles.
Look how many times we are told to repent.
Mt 3:2 and saying, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand!”
Mt 4:17 From that time Jesus began to preach and to say, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”
Mr 1:15 and saying, “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand. Repent, and believe in the gospel.”
Mr 6:12 So they went out and preached that people should repent.
Lu 16:30 And he said, ‘No, father Abraham; but if one goes to them from the dead, they will repent.’
Lu 17:4 And if he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times in a day returns to you, saying, ‘I repent,’ you shall forgive him.”
Ac 2:38 Then Peter said to them, “Repent, and let every one of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins; and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.
We are told to repent and to be baptized, so that the Holy Spirit can dwell in us. Have you done this yet? Have you been baptized so the Holy Spirit can come and dwell in you? All you have to do is ask?
Even Yeshua told the people to repent. Again I ask why would they have to repent if they were already saved by grace? It is because in order to be saved by grace you have to repent first.
So what is it exactly that we are to repent of?
Ac 3:19 Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, so that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord,
Ac 8:22 Repent therefore of this your wickedness, and pray God if perhaps the thought of your heart may be forgiven you.
Ac 26:20 but declared first to those in Damascus and in Jerusalem, and throughout all the region of Judea, and then to the Gentiles, that they should repent, turn to God, and do works befitting repentance.
We are to repent of our sins; we are to repent of the wickedness of our heart, and we are to do works showing that we have repented. But the Christians say JESUS fulfilled the law so that they don’t have to do anything. Just come as they are. That is what the Christians say, but the bible says you are to repent from doing sins.
So what does this mean in Mathew 22:10 So those servants went out into the highways and gathered together all whom they found, both bad and good. And the wedding hall was filled with guests. 11 But when the king came in to see the guests, he saw a man there who did not have on a wedding garment. 12 So he said to him, ‘Friend, how did you come in here without a wedding garment?’ And he was speechless. 13 Then the king said to the servants, ‘Bind him hand and foot, take him away, and cast him into outer darkness; there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’ 14 For many are called, but few are chosen.”
This man came just as he was. He had not changed or repented of anything and he was cast out. The wedding garment is the white robe as we are told of in Rev
6:11 Then a white robe was given to each of them; and it was said to them that they should rest a little while longer, until both the number of their fellow servants and their brethren, who would be killed as they were, was completed.
Isa 61:10 I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, My soul shall be joyful in my God; For He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
The wedding garment is the robe of righteousness that we are to wear. It is our robe of salvation. What is righteousness?
De 6:25Then it will be righteousness for us, if we are careful to observe all these commandments before the Lord our God, as He has commanded us.’
Ps 119:172 My tongue shall speak of Your word, For all Your commandments are righteousness.
Isa 48:18 Oh, that you had heeded My commandments! Then your peace would have been like a river, And your righteousness like the waves of the sea.
The Commandments are righteousness. This is what we are to put on if we want to be clothed in the proper clothing at the wedding. It is the keeping of the commandments that is the works of repentance.
Now when we read James it should begin to make sense to us; James 2:14-26
14 What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? 15 If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, 16 and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? 17 Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead. 18 But someone will say, “You have faith, and I have works.” Show me your faith without your works, and I will show you my faith by my works. 19 You believe that there is one God. You do well. Even the demons believe–and tremble! 20 But do you want to know, O foolish man, that faith without works is dead? 21 Was not Abraham our father justified by works when he offered Isaac his son on the altar? 22 Do you see that faith was working together with his works, and by works faith was made perfect? 23 And the Scripture was fulfilled which says, “Abraham believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness.” And he was called the friend of God. 24 You see then that a man is justified by works, and not by faith only. 25 Likewise, was not Rahab the harlot also justified by works when she received the messengers and sent them out another way? 26 For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also.
Again what are we to repent of? Sin!
So what is the biblical definition of sin? 1Jo 3:4 Whoever commits sin also commits lawlessness, and sin is lawlessness.
So we are to repent of sin and therefore we are to repent of being lawless. We are to repent from breaking the law.
Mt 11:20 Then He began to rebuke the cities in which most of His mighty works had been done, because they did not repent:
These people would not obey the commandments. They would not repent, even though they saw the Messiah do these great miracles.
Lu 13:5 I tell you, no; but unless you repent you will all likewise perish.”
And you too will perish if you do not repent. Despite what many Christians say, the bible says that the soul that sins shall die. It does not live on forever in hell in torment. The soul that sins shall die.
Eze 18:4 “Behold, all souls are Mine; The soul of the father As well as the soul of the son is Mine; The soul who sins shall die.
Eze 18:20 The soul who sins shall die.
Even Paul says that Ro 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. And here you have what grace is. It is a gift from Yahweh. You cannot earn it. It is given by Him to whomever He chooses. But He does not give it to those who continue to sin. Why? Well you just read it, the soul that sins will die as wages for not keeping the commandments. And once the soul is dead, it is not living in heaven or hell. It is dead, period.
Ac 17:30 Truly, these times of ignorance God overlooked, but now commands all men everywhere to repent,
We are in the last days when the restoration of all things is taking place. The Weekly Sabbath is restored as well as the Holy Days according to the sighting of the Moon, and the Sabbatical Years are being restored and many of the teachings of Torah. And many brethren are learning these things and repenting and changing from their rebellious ways to become more obedient with Torah and Yahweh.
These holy days and Sabbatical years are all part of the 4th commandment of the bible. Have you repented from disobeying Yahweh and have you begun to learn how to obey Him by keeping the Ten Commandments. All ten and not just the ones you approve of, but all ten.
Here are the rest of the scriptures telling you to repent and what will happen to those who do not repent.
Re 2:5 Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent and do the first works, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your lamp stand from its place–unless you repent.
Re 2:16 Repent, or else I will come to you quickly and will fight against them with the sword of My mouth.
Re 2:21 And I gave her time to repent of her sexual immorality, and she did not repent.
Re 2:22 Indeed I will cast her into a sickbed, and those who commit adultery with her into great tribulation, unless they repent of their deeds.
Re 3:3 Remember therefore how you have received and heard; hold fast and repent. Therefore if you will not watch, I will come upon you as a thief, and you will not know what hour I will come upon you.
Re 3:19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten. Therefore be zealous and repent.
Each of you are commanded to be zealous and to repent. To repent from not obeying the commandments, from living lawlessly, to change from the road you are on that leads to death, and turn 180 degrees and go in the other direction towards a life of obeying the creator of all things.
Read what is in store for those who will not repent and change.
Re 9:20 But the rest of mankind, who were not killed by these plagues, did not repent of the works of their hands, that they should not worship demons, and idols of gold, silver, brass, stone, and wood, which can neither see nor hear nor walk.
Re 9:21 And they did not repent of their murders or their sorceries or their sexual immorality or their thefts.
Re 16:9 And men were scorched with great heat, and they blasphemed the name of God who has power over these plagues; and they did not repent and give Him glory.
Re 16:11 They blasphemed the God of heaven because of their pains and their sores, and did not repent of their deeds.
Notice that those who do not repent are the ones that receive the curses in Revelations. On which side of the fence are you? Are you one of those who has repented from breaking one or more of the Ten Commandments, or are you still not caring about the law because you know better than Yahweh?
There are many scriptures in just the News testament telling us to keep the Commandments. I challenge you to find one that says do not keep the commandments. Just one if you can. Here are some of the ones you should pay attention too.
Mt 15:3 He answered and said to them, “Why do you also transgress the commandment of God because of your tradition?
Mt 15:6 then he need not honor his father or mother.’ Thus you have made the commandment of God of no effect by your tradition.
Mt 22:36 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?”
Mt 22:38 This is the first and great commandment.
Mr 7:8 “For laying aside the commandment of God, you hold the tradition of men*–the washing of pitchers and cups, and many other such things you do.”
Mr 7:9 He said to them, “All too well you reject the commandment of God, that you may keep your tradition.
Mr 12:28 Then one of the scribes came, and having heard them reasoning together, perceiving that He had answered them well, asked Him, “Which is the first commandment of all?”
Mr 12:30 And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength.’ This is the first commandment.
Mr 12:31 And the second, like it, is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”
Lu 23:56 Then they returned and prepared spices and fragrant oils. And they rested on the Sabbath according to the commandment.
Joh 13:34 A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another.
Joh 14:31 But that the world may know that I love the Father, and as the Father gave Me commandment, so I do. Arise, let us go from here.
Joh 15:12 This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.
Ro 7:12 Therefore the law is holy, and the commandment holy and just and good.
Ro 13:9 For the commandments, “You shall not commit adultery,” “You shall not murder,” “You shall not steal,” “You shall not bear false witness,” “You shall not covet,” and if there is any other commandment, are all summed up in this saying, namely, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.”
Ro 16:26 but now has been made manifest, and by the prophetic Scriptures has been made known to all nations, according to the commandment of the everlasting God, for obedience to the faith–
Eph 6:2 “Honor your father and mother,” which is the first commandment with promise:
1Ti 1:5 Now the purpose of the commandment is love from a pure heart, from a good conscience, and from sincere faith,
1Ti 6:14 that you keep this commandment without spot, blameless until our Lord Jesus Christ’s appearing,
Tit 1:3 but has in due time manifested His word through preaching, which was committed to me according to the commandment of God our Savior;
Heb 7:5 And indeed those who are of the sons of Levi, who receive the priesthood, have a commandment to receive tithes from the people according to the law, that is, from their brethren, though they have come from the loins of Abraham;
2Pe 2:21 For it would have been better for them not to have known the way of righteousness, than having known it, to turn from the holy commandment delivered to them.
2Pe 3:2 that you may be mindful of the words which were spoken before by the holy prophets, and of the commandment of us, the apostles of the Lord and Savior,
1Jo 2:7 Brethren, I write no new commandment to you, but an old commandment which you have had from the beginning. The old commandment is the word which you heard from the beginning.
1Jo 2:8 Again, a new commandment I write to you, which thing is true in Him and in you, because the darkness is passing away, and the true light is already shining.
1Jo 3:23 And this is His commandment: that we should believe on the name of His Son Jesus Christ and love one another, as He gave us commandment.
1Jo 4:21 And this commandment we have from Him: that he who loves God must love his brother also.
2Jo 1:4 I rejoiced greatly that I have found some of your children walking in truth, as we received commandment from the Father.
2Jo 1:5 And now I plead with you, lady, not as though I wrote a new commandment to you, but that which we have had from the beginning: that we love one another.
2Jo 1:6 This is love, that we walk according to His commandments. This is the commandment, that as you have heard from the beginning, you should walk in it.
Brethren please read each of these verses and see who it is that is saying it. The Christians say that the law is done away after the cross. But read what Yahshua says. He does not say that the law is done away. You have been lied to by your teachers. Read the scriptures and know for sure what is the truth.
Mt 5:19 Whoever therefore breaks one of the least of these commandments, and teaches men so, shall be called least in the kingdom of heaven; but whoever does and teaches them, he shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven.
Mt 15:9 And in vain they worship Me, Teaching as doctrines the commandments of men.’ ”
Mt 19:17 So He said to him, “Why do you call Me good? No one is good but One, that is, God. But if you want to enter into life, keep the commandments.”
Mt 22:40 On these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets.”
Mr 7:7 And in vain they worship Me, Teaching as doctrines the commandments of men.’
Mr 10:19 You know the commandments: ‘Do not commit adultery,’ ‘Do not murder,’ ‘Do not steal,’ ‘Do not bear false witness,’ ‘Do not defraud,’ ‘Honor your father and your mother.’ ”
Mr 12:29 Jesus answered him, “The first of all the commandments is: ‘Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one.
Lu 1:6 And they were both righteous before God, walking in all the commandments and ordinances of the Lord blameless.
Lu 18:20 You know the commandments: ‘Do not commit adultery,’ ‘Do not murder,’ ‘Do not steal,’ ‘Do not bear false witness,’ ‘Honor your father and your mother.’ ”
Joh 14:15 “If you love Me, keep My commandments.
Joh 14:21 He who has My commandments and keeps them, it is he who loves Me. And he who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and manifest Myself to him.”
Joh 15:10 If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.
Brethren and those who are still learning; read those scriptures of John again. If you love Yahshua as you all say you do then you will keep the commandments, and when you do that then you will be loved by the Father.
Ro 13:9 – Show Context
For the commandments, “You shall not commit adultery,” “You shall not murder,” “You shall not steal,” “You shall not bear false witness,” “You shall not covet,” and if there is any other commandment, are all summed up in this saying, namely, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.”
1Co 7:19 Circumcision is nothing and uncircumcision is nothing, but keeping the commandments of God is what matters.
1Co 14:37 If anyone thinks himself to be a prophet or spiritual, let him acknowledge that the things which I write to you are the commandments of the Lord.
1Th 4:2 for you know what commandments we gave you through the Lord Jesus.
I especially enjoy what John has said above and below.
1Jo 2:3 Now by this we know that we know Him, if we keep His commandments.
1Jo 2:4 He who says, “I know Him,” and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him.
1Jo 3:22 And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight.
1Jo 3:24 Now he who keeps His commandments abides in Him, and He in him. And by this we know that He abides in us, by the Spirit whom He has given us.
1Jo 5:2 By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God and keep His commandments.
1Jo 5:3 For this is the love of God, that we keep His commandments. And His commandments are not burdensome.
2Jo 1:6 This is love, that we walk according to His commandments. This is the commandment, that as you have heard from the beginning, you should walk in it.
This is the LOVE OF Yahweh, that we keep His Commandments. If you do this then you abide in Him. If you are not keeping the fourth commandment, if you are not keeping the Sabbath and the Holy Days on the right day, if you are not keeping the Sabbatical year, then you cannot count on 1John 3:22. Your prayers will hit the ceiling and they will not reach Him. Maybe this is why your prayers in the past have gone unanswered.
Notice that Satan does not attack those who do not keep the commandments, but those who do.
Re 12:17 And the dragon was enraged with the woman, and he went to make war with the rest of her offspring, who keep the commandments of God and have the testimony of Jesus Christ.
Re 14:12 Here is the patience of the saints; here are those who keep the commandments of God and the faith of Jesus.
Re 22:14 Blessed are those who do His commandments, that they may have the right to the tree of life, and may enter through the gates into the city.
So there it is Brethren. We are saved by grace as a gift from Yahweh, yet each of us must repent from breaking the law, from breaking the commandments. We show Yahweh we love Him by keeping the commandments and when we do He will answer our prayers. Those who say they love Him and do not keep the commandments are liars as you just read from in 1John 2:4.
In the Tribulation to come Satan will hate us because we keep the commandments, and Yahweh will visit the plaques on those who will not keep the commandments.
Will you now repent and begin to keep all Ten Commandments? You will need to be baptized in order to receive the Holy Spirit. If you were baptized before you can mikvah again. Seek out those who will lay hands on you and ask the Holy Spirit to come dwell in you. This will help you on your journey to keeping the Torah. It is not an easy walk, and there will be many times of stumbling, but you can do it if you repent and pray for help from the Father. You can do this.
There is no sin which you have done which will not be forgiven, but you must repent from continuing to walk in these sins. Once you do this they will all be forgotten by Yahweh.
The choice is yours. Now that you know what sin is, what will you do?
“If you love Me, keep My commandments. Bottom Line. May Yahweh bless you and show you His truths as you begin to keep His commandments.
Joseph F Dumond